Staring at a blank screen with a flashing cursor…
I know I want to write and convey here how my life has been anything but straight forward or simple this last week.
Don’t get me wrong, I hate sounding like I am whining or complaining or even venting, but I guess this post will be a bit of all three – I apologize in advance for this.
However, this really isn’t my style to be honest.
I am usually pretty damn good with sucking it up and just keep going.
This wasn’t always the case, as a teen I used to constantly find the negative in just about anything and spew whenever I could about it…
Actually, I can hear my mom telling me, in one instance (I was probably about 16 – girl and hormonal need I say more), “Can’t you just see the glass half full not empty for once?”This is what I am talking about!!!
I am not saying this moment defined me, but I do remember thinking after she said this to me that quite possibly I should try my best to indeed see life in general with a more positive perspective.
Not exactly saying rose colored glasses, but still at the very least, I didn’t always have to be Debbie Downer or just waiting to explode when the next problem arose.
So since my late teens, I have, for the most part, seen life and even what most would consider to be less then pleasing with a more positive spin.
Sometimes, even repeat to myself that things could always be worse and the glass is definitely more then half full!
Trust me, I know I am lucky and life is relatively good.
I mean I grew up in a relatively normal, loving family. Did I have moments where I thought those people are crazy? Hell yes, but still they stuck with me through thick and thin – loving me even when I was unloveable at times.
I married a man, who is my equal – honest, loving, my best friend and a wonderful father. Do we have our moments and fights? Again hell to the yes, but still I wouldn’t want to fight or makeup with anyone else.Kevin and I – Summer 2014
I am the mom to two beautiful girls, who are perfect in my eyes (yes I know they aren’t at times, but still they are mine and to that end perfect). So, again for all the crazy times, I wouldn’t trade these two for the world.
Becoming a mom for me did change my outlook that much more.
On that end, if you are a friend on Facebook or even follow my blog, then you know that Emma had been pretty sick from last week.
Like I said try my best to see the positive in things, but healthcare I can’t help but question in recent times and have shared more then a few of my issues in the last few years, like when Emma had RSV pneumonia or my issues with having an IUD put in for birth control.
So, why anything about my kids getting sick when dealing with doctors and more would shock me is beyond me.
Long story short, we had to visit doctors (twice to her own pediatrician and once to urgent care after hours) three times in almost a week’s time, before she finally got diagnosed as having pneumonia.
To say this past week has been anything short of insane is understatement.
I somehow though made it through the week with my sanity intact (barely) between running back and forth to the doctor, trying to get Emma better with over the counter medicine and even keeping her from falling behind in school work (yes this is kindergarten). And by the way, this isn’t even covering taking care of the rest of us or with my own jobs of blogging and designing, too.
That is until…
It was the morning, Emma was finally ok to go back to school. I made sure to get her folder ready the night before with all her made up work, plus include her note for lunch (as to what she was buying for the day) and even put her snack bag together.
But when I went to get her ready in the morning, the first thing I realized was it was library day. So, I went to grab the Frozen book she took out over two weeks ago on the last library day she was in school for and realized it wasn’t there.
I began to panic.
Crazy and stupid thing to panic over, but still couldn’t help it. After asking calmly and then not so calmly, it was found on our kitchen table under Kevin laptop.
Then, the rest of my insane morning began to play out with me trying to get breakfast into her, so she could have her antibiotic before leaving for school. This medicine needs to be shaken before given to her. So, I did that and opened the cap just enough to have it loose looking for the medicine cup to give it to her in and also am pretty sure I was straightening up the kitchen counter, as well, at the same time.
When I went to grab for the medicine again, I totally forgot that I had already slightly opened the cap and shook the bottle again.
And white chalky mess was had by all…
In case you were wondering, the kitchen floor, the counter I was just straightening up and my clothes were all covered in what looked like matte, white paint. Yup, I had kid’s antibiotic all over my kitchen and myself, too.
I stood there for about 10 seconds, before I just started to bawl and couldn’t even manage to put myself back together right away.
Totally less then perfect, half glass empty moment from me and yet…
Here is where I know I am lucky, because Kevin cleaned up my mess (the medicine and even dealt with calling to get her more medicine for the rest of the antibiotic schedule), got Emma’s first of two doses for the day into her and even dealt with my meltdown.
So, even after my less then stellar performance as Emma and Lily’s mom that morning, as well as acting like a wife straight out of a horror movie, both girls more then forgave me and pretty much had forgotten about it by that afternoon, as well as Kevin calling me from work about an hour later and was not even annoyed at me. Yes, I did apologize to him, but still he was for the most part over it and just wanting to know how I was. Thank god for both Kevin and the girls when all else fails!
Moral of this tale…
I guess sometimes I have to concede that I can’t do it all, definitely can’t please all the people all the time and just accept that I am definitely not perfect and make my fair of mistakes/messes quite often.And in the end how it definitely should be!!
And still my glass is most definitely half full not empty by any means.
So, tell me do you tend to see the glass half full or half empty?
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